All the photos will be up real soon,

Stay tuned darlings.

All these things that I've done

A New Year, A New Life

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A decision that shocked everyone,
An answer that broke hearts,
Tears of the new year spills in hurt,
I understand now, it was too difficult

We don't have to look back now,
Blessings has always come as a disguise,
That doesn't mean promises are to be broken,
But believe me, they will only strengthen

White flower clipped on a crumpled paper,
That three letters I had been believing was the answer,
Two named strings left untied in your possession,
This white blazer, wet with emotions

Let us hold our heads up high now,
We've gotten through times of difficulties,
A new year, a new life to begin,
Will you let us forgive each other's sins?

Be strong now while time heal all these wounds,
Thankful I am, for putting me through this test,
Put your hands into mine, hammering out these dents,

We'll continue pursuing our dreams to the fullest extent.

- Lan :)


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With regards to Melfraps' 5th and most major performance,
In the event JamIt2010 Countdown Party at Woodlands,

All I can say it was too bloody amazing,
But bloody unfortunately,

You gotta wait till I have the bloody pictures,
To start off with the bloody details,
On how it went bloody well.


Now now,
Coming to 2010,

I know I had not posted any New Year Resolutions to start with.

But that's fine by me,
All I can say is I just wanna be brighter than ever,

Not just physically,
Not just mentally,

But realistically.

Go figure.


Never would I have thought though,
I had enough courage to actually turn to my ma,
Having tears in my eyes so heavy,
That she actually grabbed my hand tight to console me.

I've admitted my deepest secrets I kept from her,
I was too disturbed, too stressed up,

All I ever wanted on a New Year was to seek forgiveness from her,
For all these things that I've done.

She filled me with warmth,
With words so comforting,

She understood me clearly,
Of all the past worst mistakes I've done,

It was the first in the long run,
I had cried so badly in front of my ma.

But it was worth it,
It was all worth it,

Not only she forgives me,
But she forgives you as well.

And that's the reason why I came up with this entry,

I'm too proud of my ma.

As she is too proud of me.

Thank you for the wake.


There's none other lady I love more than you mother,
Lan

Chance

Dear Natalie,


I turned to look at you,
Coming to us with another guy tagging,
There was no arrows of cupid hitting me,
Love at first sight was plain bullshit then

You weren't anything special,
You weren't anyone I would have wanted to know,
With MSNs exchanged due to our locations,
Lustful hearts exchanged their blows

Heading into work with my phone ringing,
Our first conversation pinches me in amazement,
None I knew could have match my mind so often,
A sense of perfection, a taste of chemistry

Never had I expected, my barrier weakens for you,
That light you showed within, had me staying,
Someone whom my efforts was never regretted,
Feel my warmth, while I shine on you

I've traveled through the land that rained spears,
Splintering trust, stabbing emotions,
Though somehow I reached the end with unbroken will,
A dream I pursue, Reality shall make it true

I've stood through that driving rain,
Eagerly waiting for that light to shine me through,
There's nothing more in me, you've yet to know,
This test you've completed, you had never turned back

With faith,
Will you accept my every sides I've showed?

With trust,
Will you listen to my will of rebuilding it into perfection?

With loyalty,
Will you put the freedom I will give into good use?

With honesty,
Will you believe it'll solve your deepest lies?


With Love,
Will you accept this risk,
Possibly losing someone for another,

And let me light your heart into a life everyone had been struggling to live?


May the Sun smiles on the stars that sparkles in their darkest hour.


I love you,
Lanny